SEEKER

I searched for myself
in external places
society taught me,
that would give me graces
A title? A label? A crown?
What for? Prove myself around?!
No… that was not IT

… Realizing now…

Four years ago
a seeker I became;
out of total indoctrination system
called school
numbed, dumbed and lost
questions were my posts.
A hurt a loss a bodily rash
Got me on a different path
All hell breaking loose inside
180° turned;
all I knew I was seeking something
Freedom was ringing- ding dong

… Realizing now…

As time went ” I” thought
I found my way
Only to be rocketed
to inner space
I encountered celestial
“Salve Regina”
My being knew
Forces fired
Electrical broomstick
crashing through a brick

… Realizing now…

Remembering clearly
I asked IT for sign
IT replied by
“Here my love,” crashing my toe phalange
necklace gemstone shattered
Heavy breakdown
crumbling my walls
Preceded by hitting balls

“LISTEN!” shouted
“LISTEEEN” shouted

Shall I had listened
not have I caused greater bodily misalignment?
Hell it passed;
experience grasped
No shame no blame,
I would not take
another train.
ALL IS WELL!
IT got me in hell & back.

On my knees IT put me
” Surrender love”
ego resisting
” Surrender love”
Hell! It crisped ” ME”
” Surrender love”
Damn! It hurts!
” Surrender love”
NOT FAIR!
” Surrender love”
OKKK I listen
” Now we are getting somewhere…”
” Haven’t you asked why yo body misaligned?
Wrong walking!
in life path!
NONSENSE! Following your mind!
Cannot be any more clearer than that!
LISTEEEEEN”

… a sweet melody…. rang in my ears

… Realizing now…

I searched for myself inside
it all felt right
something started becoming bright
ANKLE? ANGLE? ANGEL?!
What I was seeking for arrived.
Never it was not here
Always it was HERE.
Only I was seeking it THERE
Another eyes, change your lens,
“Becoming wise now, are we?”

What I seeked for never goes away;
Always present;
IT IS MY SELF, MY GOD~ liness, my love, my comfort, my shine
No label does justice
indescribible still;
Lives inside, glimmers for life
ever loving, ever lasting
No one takes it away from me
except myself
No one gives it to me
except myself!

… Realizing now…

I was seeking for God
in things & people & places
hoping to find IT,
that indescribable which I seeked for

IT< was not there,
nor was it not here
it was in the all and every one;
it was/ is GOD
but I could not see
Had different eyes
shaded, mummified
away from the Divine

A title? A label? A crown?
What for? Prove myself around?
I have it now!
God gives to me them all!

WAKE ME UP INSIDE
MARRY ME, DIVINE ❤

” I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything….
DON’T LET ME DIE HERE,
THERE MUST BE SOMETHING MOREEEEEE

BRING! ME! TO! LIFEEEEEEEEEE!!”